Ria Williams was an elite diver on track for the Olympics. As someone who struggled in school, largely due to her ADHD, diving was the one place Ria could shine.

But while her parents were focused on the trophies, no one noticed how Coach Benny’s strict rules and punishments controlled every aspect of Ria’s life. The harder he was on her, the sharper her focus. The bigger the bruise, the better the dive.

Until a freak accident at a meet changes everything. Just like that, Ria is handed back her life, free of Benny.

To fill her now empty and aimless days, Ria rekindles a friendship with Cotton, a guy she used to know back in elementary school. With Cotton, she’s able to open up about what Benny would do to her, and through Cotton’s eyes, Ria is able to see it for what it was: abuse.

Then Benny returns, offering Ria a second chance with a life-changing diving opportunity. But it’s not hers alone—Benny’s coaching comes with it. The thought of being back under his control seems impossible to bear, but so does walking away.

How do you separate the impossible from possible when the one thing you love is so tangled up in the thing you fear most?

• Neurodivergent Characters: Ria’s ADHD makes diving the one place she can shine. Cotton is on the autism spectrum, and it’s through his eyes that she begins to see the truth.
• A Toxic Coach: Coach Benny’s control was total—the bigger the bruise, the better the dive. Now he’s back, offering Ria everything she’s ever wanted at a price she might not be able to pay.
• Healing From Trauma: A poignant novel about recognizing abuse that was disguised as discipline and finding the strength to reclaim your life from the person who controlled it.
• Athlete Mental Health: An unflinching look at the dark side of elite sports, where the pressure to win can hide a toxic reality and walking away feels as impossible as staying.