Ria Williams was an elite diver on track for the Olympics. As someone who struggled in school, largely due to her ADHD, diving was the one place Ria could shine.

But while her parents were focused on the trophies, no one noticed how Coach Benny’s strict rules and punishments controlled every aspect of Ria’s life. The harder he was on her, the sharper her focus. The bigger the bruise, the better the dive.

Until a freak accident at a meet changes everything. Just like that, Ria is handed back her life, free of Benny.

To fill her now empty and aimless days, Ria rekindles a friendship with Cotton, a guy she used to know back in elementary school. With Cotton, she’s able to open up about what Benny would do to her, and through Cotton’s eyes, Ria is able to see it for what it was: abuse.

Then Benny returns, offering Ria a second chance with a life-changing diving opportunity. But it’s not hers alone—Benny’s coaching comes with it. The thought of being back under his control seems impossible to bear, but so does walking away.

How do you separate the impossible from possible when the one thing you love is so tangled up in the thing you fear most?

• An Unflinching Look at Coaching Abuse: Ria thinks Coach Benny’s control is what makes her great. But the bigger the bruise, the better the dive—and she’s about to see the truth.
• Neurodivergent Characters Done Right: With an ADHD protagonist and her insightful friend on the autism spectrum, this book explores the world through a unique and authentic lens.
• High-Stakes Sports Fiction: For elite diver Ria Williams, the path to the Olympics was everything. Now, the one person who can get her back on the board is the one she fears most.
• A Story About Finding Your Voice: After years of abuse disguised as training, Ria must make an impossible choice: walk away from her dream, or return to the man who controls it.