Most of us move through life without realising something is quietly running in the background - shaping how we think, react, love, and self-destruct. A set of beliefs and emotional patterns written long before we had the language to question them.

Sunil Sajjan calls this the inner algorithm.

In this raw, unflinching memoir, Sunil traces the code that was written into him from childhood - a mentally unwell mother whose emotional instability taught him to manage others before himself; a lie about his father's death that fractured his grip on reality; a stepfather whose violence sent him across the world alone at twelve years old.

What followed were decades of running. From addiction to gambling. From a marriage that collapsed under the weight of everything he hadn't dealt with. From himself. Until one night in an empty house in Coventry, at thirty-five years old, he nearly didn't wake up.

This is not a self-help book. It is not a recovery story with clean edges. It is an honest account of what happens when the patterns formed in childhood go unexamined - and what becomes possible when you finally stop and look at them.

The Inner Algorithm: My Story is the first book in a series for anyone who has ever asked themselves what's wrong with me - and never thought to ask the more important question: what happened to me, and how did I adapt?