I could never describe the pain men have caused me
Until one day I took a pen to a paper
And the pain flowed
I want you to know I can relate to numbness
Not having worth, waking up next to different men
I survived self sabotage
I didn't do it by loving myself or knowing I was worth it
I did it by writing
Writing my pain
Writing about the devil
Writing about the woman in the mirror
Writing about my haunting shadows
The devil for me was always a man
The women in the mirror is my choices
And my shadows are my consequences
These realizations of my life and myself
Helped me heal of a pain
I had hidden
A pain of a toxic relationship
That almost killed me
This is how healed
It's a journey and I know now it's never ending